By R.D.
Have you ever looked inside your soul,
Or tried to see into your heart.
Wonder is it just you that feels this way,
If from all the world you stand apart.
Ever feel like a spectator
That partakes in frequent games,
But never knows how others feel,
And never seems to feel the same.
Although you see your smiling face,
So convincing in each way,
And you can hear your laughter,
And know you betray no signs of pain.
When you sit and watch those around you,
Knowing they have their problems too,
Do you wonder if their hearts are cold,
Numb and cold like you.
Do others spend each waking moment wondering what they have done wrong,
That they must spend their time in cages, with no bars or bricks, or walls.
Or again am I to stand alone, from all the world apart,
And spend endless nights engulfed in tears,
And endless days nurse my aching heart.
Will the ones who care search a little harder,
Can they find the one inside?
That girl that I no longer know,
The one I try to find.
Will my friends and family stand beside me?
Will they be standing by my side?
When I look and see my reflection,
When I say, "Release me! I'll survive!".
I used to say "Give me understanding" from the ones that I hold dear,
But in lighter days I wouldn't wish they ever know my fear,
I hope they cannot feel it, and pray they never know,
But they can see me now and smile upon me,
And watch as my strenght grows.
Time is healing all my wounds,
Though it was hard to reach my hand,
And say "please someone help me"
But they did and now I stand with all my friends and family,
And I look at whats ahead,
I see the darkness that once held me, but I follow sunlight now instead.